Life with a Toddler

I am so excited that Justice is no longer using his bottle. I took it away yesterday and then tonight he never even asked for it. I am so excited that he is now really turning into a big boy. I am now going to work on taking away the Binky. I am sad though he is no longer a baby.
This is the time in my life that I cherish because he will not need me as much anymore.
Today we had Damian come and play and Justice was so excited to have here with him. It was so nice. I am going to start working on him getting him into his big boy bed.

Saturday I had my first cookie lee party at my house. It went wonderful. Justice got to go and spend sometime with daddy. They went to the guy shops and had a lot of fun, it was nice to enjoy my party and not have to chase a little one around the whole time. They got home just as my party was ending. Justice and I have both been sick with a cold and neither of us are feeling up to par but that means that I have to work and take care of myself and him when we are not feeling well. Today he seems to be doing better though which makes me happy.
Sunday we did our usually other than church since neither of us still were not feeling well. We made our rounds in bellingham then went to nana's so that I could put him down for his nap and I could get some work done then we came home and waited for daddy to get home from hunting. It was good day other than being sick.
Today has taken me a long time to get motivated to anything, but I am up and ready to go now. Once justice wakes up we have to go to make an avon delivery, the bank, to a customers house then home. Then tonight I have to go to tukwilla to the cookie lee showroom it should be fun other than driving there and back. Not looking forward to that, Justice will stay home with daddy since I am leaving close to his bed time.
I decided that I needed to make some more money for our family and avon is not cutting it right now, I do not want to have to work where I would not have my son with me, so I thought I would try cookie Lee. My first party went really well and I got a few parties scheduled from that so hopefully this will help out a lot.

So this is a list that is going around of things you should do before you die. The ones in red are things that I have done.

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars ( with my wonderful husband when we were dating)
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland/ world
8. Climbed a mountain( part of one when I was a kid)
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo's David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal in a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving/ snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served in a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Gotten flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood/ platelets
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi concentration camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the changing of the guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Been to the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox(Twice!)
89. Saved someone's life ( my son when he chokes)
90. Sat on a jury(No, but I really want to!)
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a lawsuit
98. Owned a cell phone(who hasn't?)
99. Been stung by a bee

Other than that me and Justice did our running around today and got the house ready for my first cookie lee party and did some work from home, it was a fun and relaxing day with my little man. I love my life and would not change it for the world.

Today damian came down to play. It was fun and I wished I lived closer so these two can do this more often. We played in the house, outside and made some avon deliveries. Another normal day just with another kid.

Last past couple of days have been interesting. Justice decided the other day that he was going to be mean to me and would scratch and try to rip off my face and every type of discipline that I tried that day he would just get madder and do it again. That was a day that I just wanted to get away, but being a stay at home mom with no family right where I live that was not possible so I dealt with it and just waited for bed time to come. The next day he was totally different he woke up and was a loving boy all day giving me kisses with out trying to bite me and did not get mean all day. I loved every moment since he was the sweetest little boy in the world. He is sweet most of the time but he has his moments.
Yesterday Justice and I went and ran some errands and went to fred meyers, like always the puppy came with us. When I got back to my truck it was covered with blood. It look like something had been killed in there. I looked at the puppy and his foot was bleeding. He had gotten his toe nail caught on something and tore it out of his foot. Not sure how is did it, but it sure made a mess. We got home and got the puppy locked up so he would stay off of his foot. Then me and Justice went out and cleaned my truck and tried to get the blood out. Not an easy job.
Today we have just layed around so far and cuddled it has been nice. Not sure what we are going to do today, but probely not that much.

Justice has not been feeling well for the last couple of days running fevers of 103.2 and 101 just depending if he is on the Tylenol or not. He for some reason knows when I am going to bed and decides that is when he is going to get up. We have slept on the couch together for the last few nights which means I do not sleep, so I have gotten to cuddle with him all night which I cherish because I know that this is not something that I am going to be able to do with him forever. I am tired though because no sleep catches up with you. I am hoping that he starts to feel better and will sleep through the night tonight so that I can get some sleep too. Right now he is acting normal and is not running a fever. Lets hope for the best and that it stays this way.
We were so lucky last night, I live right next to the skagit county river and luckily it was not one of the ones that flooded. I am sorry for the ones that did get hit but thankful that our river was not one of the bad ones because if it was, I am sure that our house would be hit. In 2003 the river flooded here but not get to my house and I hope that is the case every time but you never know living in a flood plain.
Things are slowly starting to get normal around my house other than the no sleep.
My new years resolutions this year are simple and things that I know I can do.
1. make more money
2. spend more time with my husband
3. get justice potty trained and in his big boy bed
4. break the bottle
5. have another baby
6. organize my house and paint

other than that I am not sure what else I have.
Justice is getting more active and independent everyday. He likes to do things for him self and by himself a lot which is fine because he is growing into a wonderfully loving and caring little man, I miss doing things for him but I know that he needs to do them on his own sometimes since that shows him how to be independent and how to be a good little man. Life right now is wonderful and I would not change a thing about my life.

So today we got back in our normal daily schedule for the most part. We got up and did our thing then off to make some Avon deliveries and to do errands. We hit up the grocery store, took Aaron a coffee and things like that. Other than that we made dinner and just did things that needed to be done that have not gotten done. Justice is growing up so fast and I can believe that he is almost two already. I am sad to see my little man growing up so fast. I sometimes that he was still my little baby but those days are long gone and I am happy about it and sad all at one time.
There are days when I wish that I had a job outside of the home to just get away but I would not trade my life for anything and would not give up the chance to be home with my little man for any amount of money in the world. I had a child because I wanted to raise him and that is what I am going to do and no one else. I might be a little over protective and that is alright with me. Justice has only been babysat a few times and I really do not like doing that. He has not slept at anyone's house and I am not for seeing that in the near future. I don't know I am not sure how I would do not having him home in his own bed, I sure that he would do alright, but I am not ready for that maybe sometime in life that will happen. I have not let many people watch him, but I have no problems watching someone else's child. That seems natural to me but letting him go somewhere does not seem right. I am different I know.
I am really looking forward to this year with my family and watching Justice grow up into a little man and the perfect little boy that he is.

Life has been pretty chaotic with everything going on it the last few weeks. New year's eve we stayed home and had some friends over and watched a movie and ate snacks it was nice to be in the comfort of our own home until midnight when the fireworks started going off, which woke up Justice and he stayed awake the rest of the night on the couch with me. It was nice to cuddle with him, but it would have been nicer to sleep.
I got a lot of money for Christmas which was nice since I needed some new clothes and some money to do some thing for my self. I got my nails and toes done. My bangs cut then got them colored. I got my eye brows done and bought a bunch of needed clothes. I also got some small things for Justice but that is to be expected when I get money that I spend it on him. Aaron now on the other hand has not spend any of his money but that is the way things go around here.
We have also decided to try for one more baby and then we are done. I would like for Justice to have someone to grow up with and be close to.
I am glad that the year is over and hopefully 2009 will be better and I will make more money with avon then I did in 2008

I am so glad that the snow is gone and the Christmas festivities are over. Don't get me wrong I love this time of year there is just so much that goes on that time at home is few and far between.
Christmas eve we had Justice and Adina open their presents from us and that was fun especially watching justice open this year because he actually wanted what was under the paper and not just the paper. Then Christmas morning we did stockings and Santa gifts, then off to Aaron's parents to do it all over again and eat brunch. From there we went to Aaron's aunts and uncles place which was a long drive in crappy weather. We had a lot of fun everywhere. Then off to home. Which took for ever and every idoit was out driving around. We finally got home about 9 and got the kids off to bed. To get up in the morning and head to my mom's house. We all had a lot of fun and I love the holidays with family being able to spend time with everyone. This year at my mom's was different though because my three step sisters were not there, it was less chaotic but I missed them and wished that they could have made it.
I have been trying to take broken presents back and do exchanges and that is the part that I hate to do after the holidays.

Can't wait to do it all over again next year just hopefully the weather will be better and we will not have as much to do since it will be my year which means christmas morning will be at my mom's and grandma's houses and then we will do Aaron's family another day and that will be just his parent's house.

I am sad looking back on last year and how small justice was and this year he is so much bigger and so independant it just makes me think that I no longer have a baby but a big boy and he doesn't need me anymore. Ok I know that is not true but that is just how I feel. I think we need another one now so justice has some one his age to play with and so that Joel and Wendy's baby will have someone born around the same time as that one.
Now that the holidays are over back to normal life and hopefully I will have time to blog more.

I love the snow when it comes and then leaves but I am not one to like it to stay around. Justice has played in a few times but it has been really cold to take a little boy out there to play. I wish that the snow would go away since I am trapped at home. I do not drive a 4 wheel drive vehicle and even if I still had mine I would not drive in this weather. I am bummed today becuase me and Justice were supposed to go to bellingham to my sister ocean's adoption today ( a long time waiting for this day to come), Aaron had agreed to let me take his truck and he would drive the scout and I was good with this idea until I woke up this morning and we had gotten another foot of snow last night, so that destroyed those plans since I don't like to drive in this any way and that much more snow made me doubt that I could do it. I am sure that I could have but nothing is important enough to put my life and my son's life in danger to go somewhere. Ocean I love you and this was important but hopefully when you are older you will understand.
So we are stuck at home again. Tonight when Aaron gets home he will have to drive me around to get my avon delivered. He said that was ok with him, so we will just wait to see when he gets home and go and get my customers their items for christmas.
Yeasterday we went shopping. Justice had gotten money for christmas so I got him a DVD player for my truck so he can watch that when we are out on avon deliveries or when we are going to bellingham. Just when ever to keep him entertained since he is in the car alot more than most children.
I got clothes with some of my money which was needed since I really don't have that many that fit and are nice.
Aaron got a new pair of shoes and Adina got clothes too. We had a lot of fun shopping yesterday and it was nice because not many people were out.

Saturday we did christmas with my dad's side and it was a lot of fun. The kids all had a blast and it was sure nice to spend time with that side of my family since I do not get to do as much of that as I would like.

Today it started snowing. We were at Aaron's parents house and Justice got to have his first snow ball fight with his Uncle Joel and daddy. He had a blast. He then had to go and find every puddle out there to stomp in and just get wet and dirty. Thank goodness I brought his pj's down there so that I could get the wet clothes off of him and put him in something dry and warm
So far this month we have got our shopping done. Justice helped put up the tree and decorate the house and now I will start making some cookies for the many christmases that our family attends. I am looking forward to watching Justice open his presents since last year he did not really care since he was so young and this year I know he cares because he keeps sneeking under the tree to pull presents out to open. He cares about the ones wrapped in sponge bob wrapping paper the most, of course those ones are his too. Go figure. He is a smart little boy, sometimes too smart for his own good, but that is alright I love him and would not trade him for the world.
Tomorrow morning Aaron will be hunting so me and Justice since we are stuck at home since the weather is not something that I like to drive in, we will be playing outside in the snow. Not my favortie thing to do because it is too cold and I do not care for the cold, but I know that Justice likes it so it is something that we will do. Maybe he will sleep in for me too that would be a wonderful surpise that I would cheirsh for a long time. Being a full time mom there is not a lot of sleep but there are sure a lot of rewards to this job.

Ok so I got in the shower. I guess I am not supposed to do that with a little boy up, but I did and this is the mess that he made for me. What a big helper. I love him but there are days that I want to duck tape him to something so that I can get cleaned up for the day and not have to clean the house when I am done.

Today I decided that me and Justice were going to decorate for Christmas. I know that it is early but it is something that I thought would be fun. I did not realize how many decorations we do not have. I forgot that we do not have that much so it actually sucked decorating because it was a little depressing that we do not have that much and right now I can not go and buy anything because we do not have the money to do so. Maybe next year we can get some more stuff and make everything look pretty and wonderful for the kids. Justice had fun though and we are waiting for daddy to get home so that we can put up the tree and get it all decorated. I am excited for Christmas this year because I think Justice will have fun opening all his presents and going to the different places to do so.
I never really liked holidays until Justice came now they are something to look forward to seeing his little eyes light up when he gets up in the morning and doing all the fun shopping for things for him. I am so excited to go and get him somethings. I can not wait.
This year will be bargain hunting for presents because money is tight and I can not afford for how many people I have to buy for. Note to self start shopping way sooner next year. I say this every year but it never happens but I am going to make sure that I either start sooner or start to put money aside to do so.
I am looking forward to seeing his face when Santa comes.
Off to make dinner now and to watch some more sponge bob with justice lee.

Saturday started off like any other day, daddy was hunting and me and Justice were hanging out at home. He ate like he always does and when daddy got home he wanted to go out and see him so we did. Justice played outside for quit a while before I brought him in to get cleaned up so that we could go down to Aaron's parents for dinner. When I came in to change his clothes I noticed that he was covered in hives, so off to the doctors. They gave him benadril which worked but we are not sure what he is allergic to which sucks because I would like to know so that we do not go through that again. It was not fun for him or me because he was covered they did go away as fast as they came on though which was nice, so we then went down to the parents for dinner.
Sunday we got up and went to church which I love to do because our church is nice and I really like pastor grant. After church off to nana and poppas for lunch and to play while momma works. The same thing that happens every sunday. Justice had fun and I got a lot of work done for my mom.
Monday we made some avon deliveries and hung around the house.
Today is the same as monday nothing too exciting going on and I think it will turn out to be a pretty normal day.

So this morning I got told that one of my dogs has beaten the other one up again, so off to the pound for the one since this is not the first time and I am sure it will not be the last. That was the start to a day that began at 4 in the morning.
Then Justice decided to play on my computer like he does everyday, but this time he fell and now has an eye that is almost swollen shut, a bump between his eyes and a bump on his head. What else could this little boy do to himself today?
As I am sitting here waiting for the humane society to open so that I can call and make sure that they have room for my dog since that is what it says to do, she decided to beat up Fat Boy again. It is never ending.
Justice is now down for his nap which was well needed so hopefully the day will get better when he gets up and not worse

Saturday night me and Aaron went out and left Justice home with Aaron's parents which was needed for the two of us to spend some time together. The only thing thought was when we got home he woke up at 2 in the morning and stayed awake and now since Saturday he must not be feeling well because he is not eating and is poopy and does not want to do much. I feel bad and I know it has nothing to do with me not being home saturday it just makes me feel like I did something wrong. Trust me I know that me and Aaron needed some time together with out any kids but it just makes me feel bad though.
Today we did not do much other than hang around home and go to walmart to get wet wipes because one more poopie and I would not have any. Tomorrow we have things to do though and I really hope that he feels better because I do not want to haul a sick kid around. That does not sound fun for me or him, but we will see.
Justice still wants to watch sponge bob all the time and loves anything that has to do with sponge bob which sometimes is nice now that I can turn it on and he will watch it and I might get something done.

So today I put justice down for his nap and with in ten minuets he was in his crib crying and saying puckie( poopie). I thought that he had just gone in his diaper so I thought nothing of it when I went to his crib. Well I thought wrong, nothing new. He had pooped and taken his diaper off and had it on his hand, head and on the crib. That is not something that I would have thought would have happend. So I had to clean him the crib and the walls in his room before I could get him down for his nap. I wish someone would have warned me of these things because then I might have figured out a way for the diaper to stay on.
I am also working on potty training him and that is not working at all. I am not sure what to do, he will sit on it and then when he stands up he will pee anywhere but in the potty. Maybe someday I will not be changing his diapers any more but for now we will be cleaning up messes hopefully no more puckies anymore though.

Lately Justice has not been the easiest to put down for his nap or for bed time and this is not my son. He usually does not put up a fuss. I am not sure what is going on with that. Yesterday the only way he would take a nap is if I held him and cuggled so that what I did. I did not get anything done that needed to be done, but I got to hold my little man which was nice because I know that is not going to happen all the time when he gets older so I really like it when I get to do it now. I love every moment that I can share with him that way.

So today I heard that Old Navy was having a sale on hats and scarfs and I had a gift card to Khols, me and Justice went out to do some Christmas shopping. Not much but some. At least I can say that I have started now. I always wait to do my shopping and then kick myself because it is so much to do at the last minuet. We went to khols first and got Justice his ornament for this year and of course it is sponge bob. Then off to old navy where we picked up hats, gloves and scarfs for the little ones in my family. They were cute and did not cost very much at all. We then we to starbucks so that I could get my drink and Justice a cup of whip cream.
We then got home where Justice played with his new ornament and I wanted to start decorating for christams but have been told that it is too early to do so, I might just do it any how.

I am now looking to see where else I can go for good deals to get more shopping done.

Not much different has been going on. The same stuff everyday. Justice is really talking alot these days and I love it so much. I wish sometimes he was a tinny baby again just because he was not small for long at all, but it is so much fun everyday with my little man. He is just filled to the brim with energy and keeps me going 24/7. I love every moment of it, even the parts where he makes a mess and looks at me and says "mess" and the only reason that I think that he does this is just to make the mess for fun.
He thinks that he is funny and it is not that big of a deal to me, he has fun and that is all that matters to me that my little guy is having harmless fun. I would not change a thing about my life and the choices that I have made to stay home with him. I could not be more grateful that I have had the blessing to be home with him all the time and I am the one whom gets to raise him and not daycare. Grated being a stay at home mom is more than being a mom it is being a short order cook, maid, dish washer, play buddy, and many many more things. I also work with avon and I love the fact that Justice can do that with me.